Feeling like the rest of June was… weird? Like suddenly you’re back in old thought patterns? Like you thought you healed this already? Maybe you’ve even caught yourself wondering, “Am I back to my old self?” No worries — I got you. Right now, the main themes surfacing are mental loops, trust, integration, discipline, and confidence. We’re not just revisiting old stuff for the sake of healing (though for some, that’s part of it). What’s coming up now is showing up as a test — Not to punish you, not to undo your progress — but to ask:“Can you stay grounded in the moment?”, “Can you remember who you are — even while this old energy tries to pull you back?” The homework is to hold your center, to choose your present self over your past version, to not forget everything you’ve already worked so hard to reclaim.
Hi guys! So this was supposed to be my July newsletter, but so many of us have been feeling weird that I decided to send it early! So let’s get into it. After the full moon in Sag, a series of energetic tests have been coming up for the collective —I mean a lot of us have been feeling it. You know that summer energy we were excited to get going on? The motivation, the manifestation, the lightness? Well… Spirit had other plans.
What I want to do in this post is share some channeled messages about what people are experiencing, explain what’s going on with the energy, and offer some advice that Spirit shared — so that instead of drowning in this heaviness, we can actually work with it.
June’s full moon was meant to help us clear blocks that have been holding us back from living our best lives. It stirred up feelings of excitement, expansion, possibility. It was fiery. It was forward-looking. But for many, that boost didn’t last. If you did the shadow work I posted about last month and then suddenly found yourself feeling overwhelmed — that’s actually a good sign.
You did the work, which made space for deeper emotions to rise — because that’s what shadow work does. It doesn’t instantly make you feel better — it makes you feel what’s ready to be seen. If you didn’t do the shadow work (no judgment)— the rest of June might’ve felt like you got hit with a ton of bricks. Either way — a lot of us felt it.
What You Might (or are) be Feeling Right Now:
- Randomly thinking about people you haven’t spoken to in a while
- Feeling old wounds you thought you healed
- Getting caught up in drama with friends, family, or even coworkers
- Experiencing discomfort — from your sense of self or even to your beliefs
You might be asking:
- “Why does this feel so messy again?”
- “Why do I feel like I’m regressing?”
- “Why can’t I shake this energy?”
Some of us are learning deep lessons around confidence, trust, and patience — especially trust in ourselves, our healing journey, and the Divine.
Let’s Get Down to it …Karma, Lessons, and Unfinished Business:
On June 18, Jupiter squared Saturn
- Jupiter is the planet of expansion, higher wisdom, vision.
- Saturn is the planet of karma, life lessons, and structure.
When these two “square” it means that what each individual planet rules clash together, you get that push-pull energy of:
“I’m ready to grow!” vs “wait — I want to stay safe” and “first you need to close this cycle off”
This is why a lot of people felt like they were revisiting old people, situations, or pain. Not because you are meant to go back — but because you were meant to let go, consciously this time.
Let me give you an example from my own life to help:
A romantic interest from my past came to me in spirit recently. We never actually dated, but the feelings between us were always strong. Even I’ve dreamt of us in past lives, walking hand in hand. In one dream, he told me, “I’ll be right back.” BUT this man never returned (unbelievable 😂)
So when he came to me in spirit again, there was a part of me that was like… maybe I should try to explore this again . But instead of going down that road, Spirit asked me: “Is this still what you want?” And I realized — I didn’t.
This moment It was a test from Spirit to see if I was still seeking to be with someone who I just know can’t give me what I want (he’s got soul lessons in figuring out what he wants in life — and sticking to it (send him love if you feel called…)) Anyways, I decided I did not want to go down that road…turns out I passed the test — Spirit was just assessing my energy, whether I’m ready to go to the next level (trust me though I’m not always passing spiritual tests! But that doesn’t mean I failed. It just means I’m learning where I need to redirect my energy)
How this relates to you:
- What Cycle Are You Being Asked to Close?
- What dynamic keeps replaying in your life?
- Are there people in your life where you feel you are on separate paths with?
- What version of you keeps trying to be loved, chosen, or seen?
- Are you keeping yourself trapped in feelings of abandonment or feelings of being left out?
- What karmic story are you finally ready to stop carrying?
If you’re not ready to see the truth — that’s ok. Sometimes we try to fast track our healing because we want to get to the good part. Just sit with your feelings if you haven’t made a decision or if things are clear. There’s a big theme of letting the past stay in the past.
If That’s Not You… WELL..Mercury is at it Yet Again….
If you’ve been feeling mentally foggy, struggling with communication, or suddenly revisiting thought patterns you swore you’d healed — That’s what Mercury retrograde does. It brings up old stuff — not just in our relationships with others, but also in our relationship with ourselves.
And in my case, it brought me face-to-face with a version of me I used to be — the one who didn’t fully trust Spirit (unbelievable how I lived my life like this at one point looking back now!)
Before I had a relationship with Spirit, my thoughts were all over the place. My emotional world felt unstable. Back then, I didn’t have a clear inner anchor — and I didn’t always know or believe that Spirit was accessible. Suddenly, during this retrograde, that old energy came up again.
I literally found myself asking: “Spirit — can I even trust you?”
It caught me off guard. But then I realized: That question — that doubt — didn’t belong to the version of me that exists today. It belonged to the version of me I’ve already outgrown. I just had to bring myself back to the present and remember that I really do trust the Divine. So why did this stuff come up? That’s exactly what Mercury retrograde does — it surfaces the old thoughts, old beliefs, old energy, just to ask:
- “Are you still carrying this?”
- “Or are you ready to let it go for good?”
INTEGRATION TIME!
Now I know what you might be thinking…. “Anika…Mercury retrograde already ended…” And yeah — technically, it has. But that doesn’t mean our thoughts, emotions, or our sense of clarity instantly snap back into place. Integration takes time. Integration is about understanding why we were feeling the way we were feeling. As humans, we look for answers to our questions. We go through these weird and uncomfortable feelings and then afterward, we sit with this weird fog, asking ourselves:
- “Why am I feeling this way?”
- “Shouldn’t I feel better by now?”
And here’s the thing — there is an answer. There’s always an answer. When we don’t have an answer, it means sitting with the discomfort long enough for understanding to surface. It means trusting that what you just went through is still unfolding, even if you don’t know the why yet. So, if you’re still feeling off, confused, tired, emotional — no, you’re not behind. You’re still just processing.
Integration is about finding that understanding. That part takes patience. Let it come and don’t be hard on yourself!
What You Have Been Waiting to Hear:
So this is what Spirit told me about what’s going on — we’re being taught discipline, commitment, and focus. It’s tempting to distract ourselves when we feel this way — going out, wanting to lay in bed all day, etc, but Spirit told me to focus on what’s important right now, and for me that’s writing this newsletter, taking clients, and just working.
Initially I was like, “I don’t wanna do anything today,” but then I was told to ground, come back to my center, and once I do — the message was clear: stay disciplined to your commitments. Essentially, to hold the energy of commitment as these feelings pass. Not wait for clarity or motivation — just stay grounded in who you are, and keep moving forward from that place.
Also — there’s a huge lesson in confidence right now.If something in your life recently shook your confidence — a situation, a person, a misunderstanding — that wasn’t random. That was a test. Can you still remember who you are? Can you still hold your center when something external tries to shake you? You’re not who you used to be. Trust the process. Trust Spirit. And above all — trust yourself.
Oracle Card Pull for You Guys!
Here are some more themes around what is going on with the collective right now. As you read these messages, notice which ones resonate. If a particular person, situation, or behavior comes to mind — that’s your sign that the message is meant for you.
Understanding –
“Understanding is the key to getting inside another person’s head. Everyone has their own story and situation. Trying to look at things from another person’s point of view can reduce conflict and enhance relationships.”
Release –
“You’re being asked to release any toxic people or situations from your life. You deserve to be free of all drama, and this is the first step to achieving that.”
Wonderful –
“Pursue your goals and get what you want! It will provide wonderful benefits for you and the people you hold dear. Your ability to communicate is improving at this time, which will make it easier for you to interact with a broad spectrum of individuals.”
Right Direction –
“Life has to be in the right direction. Think more, try more, and find the right path for you. If you move in the right direction, you will not get lost — and you’ll get closer to success.”
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Those of you who have read this and haven’t got clarity — here’s a reminder how to do your shadow work:
Why is Shadow Work so Important?
Shadow work allows us to clear the karmic baggage we’ve accumulated — not just in this lifetime, but in previous incarnations too. As we move through each life, we pick up beliefs about the world and about ourselves — and those beliefs can slowly pull us further and further away from remembering who we really are. At our core, we are divine. We are whole. We are light. We just need to remember.
Trauma, emotional pain, and negative experiences can leave smudges on our aura. They dull our intuition and spiritual gifts. They make us feel disconnected from ourselves. When we feel disconnected from ourselves, we inevitably feel disconnected from the Divine — and that’s the separation that hurts the most.
If we want to live our best lives — to actually feel our manifestations, to wake up in joy, peace, and purpose — we have to clear out those energetic blocks.
Shadow work is how we do that!
Here’s how I do it:
1. Write it down
On a piece of paper, write out the things you’re ready to let go of. Be honest. Be raw.
These could be painful moments — especially ones that have shaped your fears, your self-sabotage patterns, your fear of abandonment, or your belief that you have to do life all alone.
For example:
• “I let go of the pain of betrayal from X person.”
• “I let go of the burden of having to grow up too fast in my family dynamic.”
2. Call Upon Archangel Michael
Once you’ve written everything down, go outside.
Ground yourself. Feel the Earth beneath you.
Call upon the Divine and Archangel Saint Michael and ask them to cut the karmic and etheric cords attached to each thing you’ve written.
Say it out loud if you can — speak it into existence.
3. Burn it
Safely burn the paper and visualize all that pain, all that heaviness, burning away with it.
See the smoke rise. Feel the release.
A Final Note
I hope this newsletter resonated with you — and more importantly, I hope it helped. You’re always welcome to send in topics you’d love to see in future newsletters or if have any burning questions you’d like answered by yours truly, drop me a comment. I’d love to hear from you!
Sending you love ❤️,
Anika